Jesus help me to stand

This morning I had another surprise: The doc wants to see me asap and he is concerned about the gradual loss of the use of my left arm! I am back on the steroids! Immediately, I was disappointed as there is a good chance of the tumour being on top again. So the questions start: Why did it not work? It was all going so well! Was all this treatment a waste of time? Then amidst the questions and tears a there is Jesus on the cross, my truest friend, telling me I am here, with you..always! Did I not have a great past few months with so many gifts? Have I not been able to live during this period, without pain, remaining alert and being there for others in the present? Hasn't this period been a great change to the positive for me? And, did we not know the roadmap of this story from the beginning? Yes, I don't like it! Who would? But any difficulties, pains are also a spring board for something unexpected, for discoveries of things I never knew I had, for growth, even of tumours! Now I have a choice: to live in misery feeling sorry for myself, but more importantly ignoring God' love for me and only looking at myself or to live in peace and profound joy knowing to be loved every moment by him appreciating all the gifts I receiv. So, I threw myself into the present going to the bank, getting some money, sorting out an issue for friend who does not know the world of banks and credit cards. Then peace returned. And through being open to other (Angela, Bev, Marie, my brother & family God gave me a lot of presents. This song is one of them Jesus help me to stand. Let's live in the present now and let's live it well. Tomorrow will take care of its own troubles! Counting my blessings would take a long time! Just thinking of them is quite moving! On top of that one of my tablets makes me cry anyway! I need a new supply of tissues!!

Below is the text of the song

Jesus Help Me To Stand
by Alison Krauss


Through trials, troubles and care
I know that Jesus my savior is there
Giving me faith through darkest days
Keeping me on the narrow way

Jesus savior, help me each day
Fill me with hope, fill me with faith
Darkness retreats at the touch of your hand
Jesus savior, help me to stand

Jesus lived through darkest pain
Rejected by men, despising the shame
Man of sorrows, acquainted with grief
He gave his life so we may be free

Jesus savior, help me each day
Fill me with hope, fill me with faith
Darkness retreats at the touch of your hand
Jesus savior, help me to stand

I know that Jesus died for me
Cancelled my debt at Calvary
Rose from the dead, unlocked Heaven's door
Trust in his love and live evermore

Jesus savior, help me each day
Fill me with hope, fill me with faith
Darkness retreats at the touch of your hand
Jesus savior, help me to stand