No one can be the slave of two masters:

Today's Gospel is very striking for me! This morning I spent a very strange day: I woke up very early feeling good having had a good night’s sleep, but did not really wake up until the afternoon! Then until the afternoon I could not move, because I was tired. So I offered my day for the meeting of young people here in Welwyn Garden City. Everything is a gift of love for the father! More and more I realize that all my "not for love" must be love for another! My life of my holy journey, a gift of love offered for Jesus on the cross. To "serve" two masters (the tumor and GA) is not loving single mindedly, because it does not leave room to my beloved! It is if I commit adultery!

 “Jesus said to his disciples: ‘No one can be the slave of two masters: he will either hate the first and love the second, or treat the first with respect and the second with scorn. You cannot be the slave both of God and of money. ‘That is why I am telling you not to worry about your life and what you are to eat, nor about your body and how you are to clothe it. Surely life means more than food, and the body more than clothing!

What love, what wonderful love of the Father! These days the doctors talked to me about future plans when I am incapable of making decisions. On the one hand is very sensible, but on the other they are all relaxed and I am at peace and today I realized why: I know I'm loved by a Father who already knows what I need before I know it!

Look at the birds in the sky. They do not sow or reap or gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are we not worth much more than they are? Can any of you, for all his worrying, add one single cubit to his span of life?

It is my experience during this period that Jesus on the Cross has taught me from moment to moment! So trusting his love, I am free to go out to the person next to us in the present moment and to all by loving thus transforming suffering into love being more like him. So going to the meeting with him, he recognizes me and we are one!

Think of the flowers growing in the fields; they never have to work or spin; yet I assure you that not even Solomon in all his regalia was robed like one of these. Now if that is how God clothes the grass in the field which is there today and thrown into the furnace tomorrow, will he not much more look after you, you men of little faith? So do not worry; do not say, “What are we to eat? What are we to drink? How are we to be clothed?”

My God, increase my trust in your love in every moment!

It is the pagans who set their hearts on all these things. Your heavenly Father knows you need them all. Set your hearts on his kingdom first, and on his righteousness, and all these other things will be given you as well.

Do not allow myself to fall into activism and the illusion that I  must “do” things and for them to take your place!

So do not worry about tomorrow: tomorrow will take care of itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.’ !

(Mt 6, 24-34)

The present: everything I have to offer!